Rendezvous

Finale

2009-09-01T20:38:00.003+02:00

There is always a start and an end for everything. From Soul Chamber to Rendezvous, I do love both names. They sound very special, very intrinsic to me. They have been with me for a couple of years now and me being an asshole, neglecting my blog for a long hiatus. Thus, I decided to stop maintaining this blog. Here I would like to leave you with this phrase or some sort of confession.

Thank you for being with us. See you on Facebook.

Ich bin Schwule und Ich bin fröhlich

Buddy

2009-05-31T11:05:00.001+02:00

One of the best songs I keep repeating on my Itune until now. A not very well known song in America pop culture. Nevertheless, I am in love with this song.

Buddy - 11/22

Melancholy

2009-05-25T00:45:00.002+02:00

The best way to enjoy melancholic moment is to listen sappy love songs. I am feeling melancholic today on Sunday night. It is not depression. It is more like a feeling. A feeling that I cherish. I am looking forward for Budapest trip to meet someone.

Jealousy

2009-05-03T23:21:00.002+02:00

Jealousy is a very powerful emotion. It is able to make people to do things out of ordinary. It is able to make people to think more than they usually do. But to feed on jealousy is a damn good feeling about yourself. I know it sounds abit redundant and selfish but sometimes you just need that moment to feel good about oneself.

Open

2009-04-29T23:43:00.002+02:00

I was making out with someone and holding hands with someone in a club last weekend. It happened on the dance floor and I am sure I would be embarrassed if I wasn't that drunk. It was my first time being so open minded and daring. Honestly I find it very exciting and interesting side of me. To party with someone special is something different when you party alone or with your friends. Thank you very much to you, summer fling.

Misc

2009-04-25T13:47:00.002+02:00

Few misc points I would like to make before going to buy my grocery:

I joined gym but I almost tripped myself on a treadmill in front of hundreds of people.
If next week experiment is working, I am going to be a co author in Plos Pathogen or Epigenetic (let's pray for me).
I want to go to Kenya. Why? Look at this. It will be such a great experience if I can go there to attend a course.

Inspire

2009-04-19T23:33:00.002+02:00

I love to inspire and to be inspired. That is my life philosophy. I am trying my best to inspire people around me, to bring the best out of every single one of them.

I do understand why people can be depress and giving up. I have been there, done that. Life isn't as bad as it seems. Just remember when you feel like giving up, it is the time that you have not try enough yet. Of course it is always easier to say than done. Nevertheless, there is nothing to lose anyway.

Tart

2009-04-14T23:40:00.003+02:00

A cup of warm tea in a place called Pasteis de Belèm. A unique and beautifully tile crafted cafe right in the middle of Lisbon. The moment was perfect with some authentic Portuguese tarts served at the right time, right place, right city.

Lisbon, capital of Portugal.

Magical

2009-03-29T22:24:00.003+02:00

Cologne is once one of the most magnificent cities in Germany. After the WWII, it lost its power to be a great city. Now Cologne is a product of WWII. I traveled there by ICE paying less than I thought so for a 4 hours train ride from Berlin. I was welcomed firstly by the great cathedral which apparently still stand still after the WWII. To me, Cologne is an ugly city. There aren't any leftover old medieval buildings but just some plain modern buildings.

When I was planning to the train ride back to wonderful Berlin, I was surprised when a group of orchestra next to the cathedral was playing this classical piece of art:

It was a magical moment, I was vowed by the music while looking across the cathedral.

Moment

2009-03-20T01:15:00.002+01:00

He/She gives you a peck on your cheek while you are still sleeping. This is the moment I feel the most precious in life. I am sorry, I have to apologise of being so pathetically romantic.

Please don't leave me

2009-03-15T21:37:00.001+01:00

I really like this video clip.

Present

2009-02-25T18:04:00.003+01:00

"Where I am now, for the first time it feels right."

Taken from one of the Smallville episodes.

Fortune

2009-02-19T00:07:00.001+01:00

The Chinese restaurant owner rarely gives out free stuff. But today, he was in really good mood cause I was speaking Chinese to him. He gave me free fortune cookie.

My fortune cookie told me this:

"Passionate New Romance Appears in Your Life When You Least Expect It"

What a coincidence. What a timing. What else can I think? It is just ridiculous.

Transition

2009-02-16T22:10:00.002+01:00

Things are changing no matter how much you can control it. It is not matter of controlling. It is matter of adapting. Berlin is snowing again. Flakes and flakes of snow are dancing down to the ground.

People started to wonder what happened to me. Even though I did not show any emotions, but people still asked me "Am I ok?". I forced myself to give a slight smirk. Welcome back, the emotional tim.

Repetition

2009-02-15T19:02:00.003+01:00

4 years ago, I felt like a piece of shit. I felt it is the end of the world.

Today, I felt the same again. The same ol' feelings. I was crying to a good friend of mine asking her to get rid of this feeling. I was asking her to make it stop because I can't handle it anymore. I was asking her to take it away.

Unfortunately, the feelings remain, and that's life. Repetition in feelings and I hate it when I can't control it properly. I am an emotional person. It is always a balanced spectrum. One can be extremely happy and also extremely depressed. This is me. This is my own personality. I begin to unravel pieces of me and understand it.

I wish things will be better and bad feelings will vanish from my body.

My life suck without you

2009-02-01T07:52:00.002+01:00

Kelly Clarkson is back with her newest single, My life suck without you. I just love her voice.

I Amsterdam

2009-01-23T22:30:00.002+01:00

I Amsterdam.

And I am disturbed by red light district. I felt the girls are being exploited in front of those huge windows wearing only their undergarments.

And I am totally wet because of the rainy day in Amsterdam.

And I am lost, can't even figuring out where the hell I am.

I Amsterdam.

In the mood

2009-01-23T10:16:00.001+01:00

I feel like sulking and getting depressed in Amsterdam. Just like the Korean movie, Daisy.

Toothbrush

2009-01-20T20:54:00.003+01:00

Being blur and grumpy in early morning, once I open my bathroom wall drawer, I saw there are always two toothbrushes. Nowadays I only see one. It is just a small little thing that trigger some emotional thinking. I guess every human has a soft spot in life.

I don´t care

2009-01-19T08:21:00.002+01:00

I kept telling myself I don´t care. By doing that, it means in fact I do care. I care more than I am expecting. Please Kamisama, I really want to not to care anymore.

Daisy in Amsterdam

2009-01-18T17:15:00.005+01:00

In 2006, I caught a movie called Daisy, a melodramatic movie from Korea as expected from the Koreans. It was filmed mainly in Amsterdam. The film settings in the city of Netherlands. 3 years later, I will be in this same location. Hopefully on Saturday, I will manage to visit this location because I was so impressed by the movie itself. I have only a day there and thus I have to make good use of the one day.

Ghetto

2008-12-23T23:14:00.002+01:00

London is just a ghetto place. I am so glad that I will be spending my time in Berlin rather than in London. It is kinda annoying in London. Merry Christmas to everyone though.

Hiatus

2008-12-13T20:20:00.003+01:00

My apology for such a long hiatus from Rendezvous. Life in Berlin is always challenging. But it never fail to amaze me every single day. I am off for a party now. Hope it will be a good one.

Financial status

2008-11-30T10:04:00.002+01:00

Zara winter coat................€120
Adidas sneaker..................€100
Ticket to London.............€100
Ticket to Amsterdam......€€€
Ticket back to Berlin.........€€€
Christmas present.............€€€
Souvenirs back home.......€€€
Ticket around UK..............€€€
Blue man group ticket.......€€€
Weekly party/club.............€€€
Weekly cocktail..................€€€
Tim's banking account.......0000 a.k.a broke
GREAT

Typical

2008-11-19T21:25:00.006+01:00

I caught a cold. And you know when we caught a cold, we usually make a lot of noise by ''sucking'' the mucus up back to your nose even there are not much of them. I just realised by my German teacher that it is a very rude habit of doing so. The Germans don't like it very much. What the hell? I am so used to make that sound when I am sick not because there are actually a lot of mucus but somehow it is a habit. Don't you make that sound too?

Anger

I wrote an article for the mamak about Germans. The mamak is a blog created by my fellow ex high school mate who is currently in Australia for creating a discussion area for Malaysians all over the world.

(Blue represents German and red represents Asian)

Selfish

2008-11-08T21:58:00.002+01:00

There is a fine line between loving someone unselfishly and selfishly. Do you love someone just because to fill in your emptiness or do you just love someone to want that someone to be happy? To love someone selfishly is easy. To love someone unselfishly is hard.

Dumb

2008-11-06T11:55:00.002+01:00

I finally decided to wash my jeans after some weeks. I can imagine how many fungi and bacteria lying on them. Thus, I was happily dumped my jeans into the washing machine and get it started. Surprisingly, I realized my wallet was in one of the pockets. Rushing towards my old stupid washing machine, I tried to stop it and open the lid but it was not successful. So I waited for 20 minutes for it to run the drying step. Cash and cards were all soaked. It was good for my wallet. It needs washing sometimes. I learned my lesson. NEVER put in your pants in a washing machine UNCHECKED!

Strange

2008-10-24T21:45:00.002+02:00

Everyone else is wearing layers of shirts to protect themselves from cold. But this one guy was wearing only a sleeveless T shirt and a short pants. How the hell can he manage to keep warm from 6 Degree Celcius of autumn? Probably he is not a German. He is from the Artic I guess.

Praha

2008-10-08T20:19:00.004+02:00

Czech Republic is probably one of the most exciting countries in the East Europe. The city center itself has only medieval buildings and only those. That what makes Prague so beautiful. Apparently it is the third most visited city in Europe. I can see why.

This is my all time favorite sculpture. Why? It depicts a normal guy on the street rather some muscular hunk or warrior with biceps and triceps all over the body. At least it is more realistic to me cause I see this body every morning.

My little adventure to Prague started rough as I did even have a bunk and I was preparing to stay in the train station. I was really lucky to find a Czech girl who is willing to help me to get a hostel and in the end, she brought me around Prague city. How unexpected. I visited Prague´s best club with 5 dance floors and got really bad hangover a day after. It was all the Aussies fault! They are the best when it comes to party and drinking. Awesome.

Memories only in Praha (Prague). Dekuji!

Prague again

2008-10-04T00:39:00.001+02:00

Prague is a city of confusion. Why? Hang on, I will write more once I get back to Berlin, my own room rather than a hostel here.

Prague

2008-09-28T22:37:00.003+02:00

Prague is the capital of Czech Republic. It is widely considered as the most beautiful city of Europe. I do not have much expectation on this city, but I hope it will be a great trip. Going there unprepared, without knowing anyone there, without speaking their language nor not knowing anything about the Czech. I think it is the best way to travel around to understand the country and get most out of it. Oh shit, I have not even book the youth hostel. I am so gonna sleep in the train station or somewhere on the roadside.

To you

2008-09-22T23:25:00.002+02:00

To you,

I just want to let you know I am able to take care of myself here in a foreign country. I promised you before that I will be happy the last time we met. I kept my promise. Please do not worry about me. That´s the last thing on earth I want you to worry. I am a big boy now. I have the urge of calling you just to listen to your voice once again. Your gentle voice. I am afraid at the same time. Afraid to hear your lovely voice again. Afraid we don´t chat like usual. I miss you dearly. The smile on your face, the sweet scent of you. I wonder when can I have the chance again.

Appreciation

2008-09-12T23:23:00.003+02:00

Sometimes a small little thing in life can make life more wonderful, more blissful. I just went to a normal bookstore in the city center to get a present and it feels great just to step in and browsing around some books even though I have no clue at all due to the ''deutsch sprachen''. Why not try to be aware about your surrounding? Just a small little thing can boast up your day. Try it.

Engagement

2008-09-08T22:47:00.002+02:00

Mathilde leans back against her chair, folds her hand in her lap and looks at him.
In the sweetness of the air, in the light of the garden.
Mathilde looks at him.
She looks at him.
She looks at him.

The movie started solidly by introducing character after character. A well written script which blend in with the fantastic score. It is a movie of courage, hope and persistence. Audrey Tautou should be awarded Oscar for her splendid performance. Even though I don´t understand French, but the story and the expression are sufficient enough to satisfy my movie craze. Yea, I am the hopelessly romantic.

Politic

2008-09-05T20:06:00.002+02:00

This is my first ever post on politic. I usually don´t really fancy politic because it is a waste of time following it seeing how politicians going berserk over power of controlling. However, recently there was a big issue against Ahmad back home. I keep myself updated from the news. It was quite ridiculous for him to have such a statement.

I personally 100% against racist. How can he give such a dumb statement saying Chinese are merely squatters? Malaysia gained independence from 1957. Chinese were there way before that. Logically Chinese are still Malaysian. Where is his common sense? He is a grown up man. He is a well known politician. But I don´t see that in him.

It is not that I hate Malaysia. I might not be very patriotic. But Malaysia is still a home. A home where I grew up and being brought up the way I am now. I am proud to be a Malaysian. Whenever I introduce myself to the German, Swiss, English, Japanese, Australian, I never feel ashamed a single moment telling them, "Yea, I am from Malaysia". I am just disappointed how the government works back home.

I don´t really care about the biased quota, help or incentive. But just don´t be racist. It reflects how mature a person is. Now, I am a little bit ashamed of telling them "Yea I am a Malaysian".

Top Model

2008-09-04T22:27:00.003+02:00

Instead of reading an article/journal entitled "Adherence of Helicobacter pylori on primary gastric cells", I was glued on my chair watching the new cycle of America´s Next Top Model. Gosh......

Contentment

2008-09-01T21:03:00.002+02:00

On a rainy day at 9.00 pm, a bowl of sesame dessert with sesame filled glutinous rice. Surrounded by candle light, preparing my presentation on Thursday, listening to soothing music from my brand new overrated Ipod speaker. I am contented being alone. Probably I am too used to be alone. My sesame paste dessert is just superb. Unbelievable.

Merdeka

2008-08-31T22:41:00.002+02:00

Sempena Hari Kebangsaan Malaysia, aku sebagai rakyat yang tidak seberapa patriotik ingin menyuarakan blok dalam bahasa ibunda. Minta maaf jike sebarang kesalahan dalam penggunaan tatabahasa.

Krumme Lanke ialah sebuah tasik sekecil dua ganda Taman Jaya. Pemandangan di sana bukan sehebat di Geneva. Malah, aku ternampak pemandangan yang tidak senonoh (well not really). Buah dada yang meleleh (saggy?) dan batang lembut (flacid?). Dah lah, bukan orang muda tetapi orang tua yang menunjukkan "kehebatan" mereka (konon).

Well, the lake isn´t as great as it seems. But of course for a sunny day, it is a perfect place to swim and just getting as much sun as possible. Probably today is the last sunny weekend of the year. Winter is coming real soon.

Saturday

2008-08-30T13:47:00.003+02:00

Top 3 reasons why I hate to work on weekend. The sky is magnificently blue. The clouds are purely white. The grass is brightly green. You cant get any better weather than this especially in Berlin. Great.

Love

2008-08-29T00:11:00.002+02:00

When you love someone, you can´t explain the reason. It just happens. It is almost like the magical moment. Pseudoscience. Can someone explain to me why do we love someone so immensely?

A Good Year

2008-08-24T15:15:00.004+02:00

A Good Year movie started with a cunning Londoner who has successful career but lack of human feelings. In the end, he finally understand what he really wants in his life. This movie taught me to appreciate the finest things in life, not necessarily climbing high on career and money. They are just possession. A possession to create a security around oneself.

One question I always have in mind, whatever we are fighting in life, is it worthwhile? Are we missing the finest things in life which are just right in front of our eyes? I might live in a fairytale world. But who doesn´t like to be in fairytale? Simple and naive.

This is the sweetest quote from the movie in french,

"pardon mes lèvres, ils trouvent le plaisir dans les endroits mystérieux"

Music and Lyrics

2008-08-23T23:41:00.003+02:00

A melody is like seeing someone for the first time. The physical attraction. Sex.
But then, as you get to know the person, that's the lyrics. Their story. Who they are underneath.
It's the combination of the two that makes it magical.

It does make sense to me actually. The quote by Drew Barrymore´s character in the movie Music and Lyrics. It is quite a relaxing movie to start to watch on a lazy weekend. I enjoyed it.

Antilop

2008-08-19T22:43:00.007+02:00

It is an exotic animal from Africa. Most of the time, this antilop runs every time whenever it sees its prey like the lion. Unfortunately, it cannot escape from human cruelty. It was served on this African dish in Berlin last Saturday and being consumed by a Malaysian prey together with African style vegetables and sweet "bread". It is a very rewarding and delightful meal.

One of the Boys

2008-08-12T22:04:00.003+02:00

It has been long since I enjoyed the album itself. In this One of the Boys album, Kate Perry never fail to amaze me with every of her song. Her songs are catchy, flamboyant and chic. Did I mention flamboyant? Haha. Check out her Remix version of Ur So Gay. Perfect for a clubbing song.

Deutsch

2008-08-06T22:18:00.002+02:00

Someone was supposed to come to my apartment to fix the windows and here I proudly present my German conversation. =)

Me: Hello, I am calling for Soenke (my landlord)

Craftman: xxxxxxxxxxxx

Me: Keine Deutsch, English bitte (No German, English please)

Craftman: No English

Me: (SHIT) Ok. Heute Soenke 6 pm?

Craftman: xxxxxxxxxxx aaahh....... sooo......

Me: ??? Heute nein? (today no?)

Craftman: Morgen

Me: Morgen? Morning? (I just remembered morgen can be tomorrow too)

Craftman: xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Morgen 6pm

Me: Ok, heute nein? nein? (today no? no?)

Craftman: heute nein, morgen. Ok?

Me: Ok.

Craftman: bis morgen.

Me: bis morgen..... (see you tomorrow)

Sudden

2008-08-02T09:22:00.002+02:00

Suddenly I feel peculiar feeling this.
Missing a good companionship from Canada, Sharon.
Missing an easy going vocalist cum housemate, Tom.
Missing running here and there trying to follow schedule.

Now it is a mess.
The new apartment is a mess.
Time to resettle again I guess.

Feelings

2008-07-23T23:17:00.002+02:00

It is hard to control the feelings at times. But yet I know I have to. Things are getting too fast. Things are getting more complicated. Things are getting messier with agenda popping up in my life non stop. But yet, sometimes it is good to have the feelings. The feelings of thinking about someone.

I on me

2008-07-21T21:58:00.002+02:00

It is a wicked piece of technology! Damn, I am being a spoilt brat now. Though it burns a hole in my pocket, but I just love to touch it.

RIP

2008-07-20T11:07:00.003+02:00

I always believe in this quote:

"When you feel like giving up, it is the time you know you are not doing your best"

Committing suicide is definitely NOT a way out. Of course it is an easy way out for everything. Suicidal is just a phase. A person can´t be suicidal all the time. It is just a phase. Life is a responsibility. It depends how you view it. It can´t be worse anymore when you are suicidal. Just let go of the suicidal thought. Please, don´t be particular about any problems. Life is just too short to be serious with. It is just plain dumb to commit such an act.

May you rest in peace.

Congress

2008-07-13T20:48:00.004+02:00

Main reason why I don´t think I am getting fired by my boss:

I was in the XX International Congress of Genetics for one day. I was there just to browse around without any poster nor talk. It costed 150 Euros for a day ticket. And my boss just swiped his VISA card at the registration desk. Thus I think I am safe for now. I don´t think a boss will pay for anyone whom he or she will fire the next day.

Back to the congress. It was so amazing. 500 or even more participants walking here and there, attending talks, talking to exhibitors and even chatting with each other. What a massive crowd. More than 400 posters. A handful of them comes from Malaysia and Singapore. What can I expect more from an international event.

Soothing

2008-07-12T21:57:00.002+02:00

The French part is just mesmerizing. It added unique flavor to the song.

Mad scientist

2008-07-11T21:36:00.004+02:00

Probably even before I am getting my degree, I will transform like him. I was in this conference today and saw some NICE histone bands. I was like "awwww, such a nice histone band. Oh, I don´t have any band at all. DAMN".

I met the salesperson in charge for the kit. She said "I am SO SO SO sorry to hear that your experiment didn´t work out. It must be tough huh". The inner me was saying "Yea you are so NOT helping much. Give me a new free damn kit and a column! I can´t ask my supervisor to buy a new one. He will slaughter me!"

After 4 months

2008-07-06T19:43:00.002+02:00

There were some targets or plans before I started my post graduate in a new foreign country.

Target no 1:
Setting up my own APPLE wonderland.

Results:
Still stuck with my half dead Ipod Nano. But Ipod Touch and Speaker are coming on their way. (YAY!)

Target no 2:
Enrolled myself into a healthy lifestyle (eating healthily and go for a fitness club).

Results:

Baking pizza or baguette isn´t helping much. Not exercising much (probably not at all!). But I am going to get a membership in a fitness club on August (YAY!).

Target no 3:
Must publish in high end scientific journals like Nature or Science.

Results:

How am I going to do that when I am having so much problems in the lab?? But who give a f*cking damn about journals? I am in Berlin (WOOHOO!).

Target no 4:
Probably party in SOME clubs every once in a month, enjoying music culture in Berlin.

Results:
Excessive partying ALMOST every weekend till the sun rises (GOSH!). But I am cutting down some partying time real soon!

One after another

2008-07-02T23:13:00.004+02:00

1 problem after another one. It is kinda irritating, but what can we do right? Just care less. The world is colourful. Life is too short to be taken seriously. =)

Purification

2008-06-27T19:07:00.001+02:00

Why other people can purify histone so easily? I had been doing it for freaking 3 weeks!

*throwing tantrum*

Leave

2008-06-21T23:47:00.002+02:00

When was your last time you want to leave someone you love really badly?
When you realize you can´t have conversation as usual,
When you know you can´t look at him/her like you always do,
When you can only look at him/her without being obvious,
When you can only walk from behind just to catch the glimpse.
When was your last time?

Grow up

2008-06-19T22:44:00.002+02:00

Watch from 2:58. I have to admit I am crazy about this part of the music video. It gets me moving on the dance floor this weekend again. But it seems to be as if they are cheer leading instead of dancing. Nevertheless, I just love it.

Satisfaction

2008-06-16T22:57:00.002+02:00

Wow. Best hot advert ever from her. Look at the way she moves. She is just a natural at moving her body. The music beat blends really well. I am drooling over her now at the moment. Haha

Double Trouble

2008-06-16T22:28:00.002+02:00

I have 2 student cards now. With 2 times semester tickets for me to go around Berlin. Great. Of course there is a price to pay. One is from the Humboldt University and the Free University. I prefer the latter one cause it has more campus feel and more wide grass space for students to hang around. The most impressive thing about Free University Berlin is the library caused it is from Norman Foster, world renown architect. The only architect besides Hijah Kasturi that I can remember clearly. Probably because of the GHERKIN in London.

Up

2008-06-12T00:07:00.001+02:00

Keep the chin up. That is the way of living.

Fairytale

2008-06-09T23:19:00.002+02:00

Watching the sun setting behind Berlin, it felt like a fairytale. A fairytale that I do not want it to end. A fairytale that I wish it is a never ending one. A fairytale that will turn to reality one day. A fairytale is just a fairytale.

Nightmare

2008-06-04T21:40:00.002+02:00

Nightmare probably stops your heart to beat for few seconds. You feel as if the world is collapsing. Especially when you wake up in the middle of night. When you see someone you love is beside you, the world stops collapsing. Heart begins to beat again. It is the safest place on earth. Appreciate it.

Brandenburg

2008-05-30T19:25:00.002+02:00

This is the famous landmark of Berlin. The Brandenburg Gate. The statue consists of Victoria (the Greek goddess) on the Quadriga (the chariot with 4 horses). It has more than one political story which relate to Napoleon, World War 2 as well as the famous cold war. No wonder they are still preserving it very well. Perfect for tourism at least.

Desperate

2008-05-28T21:05:00.001+02:00

Probably the best scene ever in Desperate Housewives.

Once again

2008-05-25T11:03:00.002+02:00

An Irish movie which depicts a story about encounters of two individuals. What I love about this movie is it is not a typical Hollywood style movie. Hollywood movies usually focus on few things: lame jokes, bimbo and sex. Once doesn´t potray any of those elements mentioned. It only focuses on feelings of two individuals and their short time being together. It teaches us to appreciate valuable time even though it is just a short one.

Do you rather have it for a short period of time or never experience it before? The choice is yours.

Once

2008-05-19T14:20:00.002+02:00

How often do you find the right person?

Luck

2008-05-18T09:26:00.002+02:00

You are lucky to found someone you love.
You are even luckier to found someone who loves you back.

If given a chance again, will you choose this path once again knowing the same ending? I have no doubt answering yes.

Versace

2008-05-15T22:19:00.003+02:00

One of the unexpected endings from the America´s Next Top Model. But I love it finally (again) after all these cycles. The pink dress by Versace is fantastic! Love it. BRAVO!

Now give me 17 cover. I look like a 34 cover. (That is so funny!)

Reality

2008-05-15T11:59:00.002+02:00

It is time to accept the reality. Sometimes the reality can be harsh. Sometimes it is the other way round, very rewarding one. One always have to go through both extremes of reality whether he likes it or not.

How to deal with it?

Consciousness

Being aware to your feelings is important. Trying to get rid of them is difficult. Accepting will be the ideal way. It has been always easier to say than done. As long as you try your best, it will be.

Tagged

2008-05-11T09:34:00.002+02:00

3 things I'm passionate about
1) Sex (who doesn´t?) Joking.
2) Epigenetic
3) Myself

3 things I say too often
1) Well,
2) I mean
3) Shit!

2 books I've read recently
1) Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
2) Berlin Travel Guide

2 songs I could listen over and over again
1) Come What May (Nicole Kidman and Ewan McGregor)
2) 4 Minutes (Madonna)

2 things I've learnt for the past year
1) Love yourself
2) Don´t hurt others

8 people that I tag:
1) Britney Spears
2) Models from America´s Next Top Model (more than 8)

I am tagged. But most of the details are crap anyway. Please don´t take it seriously especially about the sex.

A walk

2008-05-11T09:07:00.003+02:00

It was 3am.
Half drunk and tired.
Walking from the airport and back to the station.
But I kept on walking wishing it was a long walk.
Wishing the station was far away.
To have more time.
A walk to remember.

Chipirinha

2008-05-10T14:46:00.002+02:00

Chi Pirin Nya? My Spanish friend burst out laughing. It is KAI PI RIN NYA. It is so much harder to pronounce this Brazilian icon. The well known cocktail originated from Brazil. It is usually blended in with fruit juice. A very refreshing and exotic type of cocktail. I just love to learn so much about South America nowadays. They are heaps of fun. The Latino.

E = mc²

2008-05-07T23:36:00.003+02:00

I was flipping through Nature journal, one of the profounding journals in natural science has actually a small section on Mariah Carey. It is about her new album called E = mc², following the great Albert Einstein´s legacy. But it is actually stands for Emancipation of Mariah Carey times 2. It is a lil bit cheesy for combining both elements together.

Despite that, I don´t really think it matters as long as it is a good album. I would just think it as a decent album. I had listened to her better albums. A grade for good effort though.

Spring

2008-05-02T22:32:00.003+02:00

Yellow flowers are appearing everywhere on the green mat. In some spots, there are white flowers too. Are they daisy? To be honest, I am not that sure. I am just enjoying the combination of white and yellow on the grass. Tulips are growing more and more. I am going to a tulips garden this weekend. Hope it is a great one.

Bright colours are blooming everywhere,
In every part of the city,
My heart wishes someone is here,
To enjoy spring.

Tanning

2008-04-29T00:11:00.004+02:00

Berliner Dom is one of the largest cathedral in Berlin. It is surrounded by massive grassland. It is located right in the middle of the so called `Museum Island`of Berlin. It is hard to miss it if anyone has been to Berlin before. Easy accessible spot in the central.

Berliner Dom

It was a great Sunday with the sun shining proudly on Berlin. Spring has finally begun. I love it immensely. I took my nap on the wonderful green mat. That moment was priceless.

Vain

2008-04-27T01:32:00.006+02:00

Everyone is vain at one point in their life. It is called narcissism. It is good to be a narcissist at times. After all, love starts from the inside.

I believe most bloggers will have at least a post about photos on themselves being vain and starting taking them by using a camera phone.

After taking a shower

Waiting for a bus to come

Showing off a newly bought cap

Patience

2008-04-24T00:55:00.003+02:00

I take this route everyday for work.

Patience is a virtue.
People waiting.
Peeping for the train to come.

Sometimes I wonder how much patience a merely human has?

Watergate

2008-04-20T16:02:00.002+02:00

Watergate is one of the best clubs in Berlin (according to some websites particularly wikipedia): The club got his name `Watergate`due to its location facing Berlin waterfront. From the dancefloor, it has this awesome view towards the canal. Berlin is so crazy. This will be my most remembered culture shock. People here start to party at 2 am in the morning and end perhaps till the sun rises. I was shivering and seeing sun rises on the train station when I was heading back home. It was 5 am. I was totally worn out.

I begin to expand my music taste to electronic genre. This genre isn´t as famous as others like pop or hip hop. It is an electronic ART music. The beats are different and you can feel how your body suave together with it.

If you are reading this and you have some cool recommendation on electronic music, please kindly let me know. I found Chemical Brothers from the UK and I just love it.

Nostalgic - Smart?

2008-04-19T01:50:00.003+02:00

''SMART?

Actually I don’t know how to start my blog today. I thought of something to write on my blog while I was bathing. Anyway, without wasting too much time, I immediately on the laptop and here I am.

Ok, someone inspire me to write this in my blog, regarding that 16 A’s girl. Actually I seriously think SPM is not important as we think it is, so what she scored 16 A’s? Fine she deserves that result due to all her HARD work and sacrifice a lot of stuff. The good things she gets are getting more popular and some satisfaction. Imagine getting so many hopes from friends, family, and teacher that you will have great future is very stressful. What is the point getting good results but still no money to go overseas to further study? Good results in SPM don’t prove someone is smart or stupid. In order to get good results you need hard work and luck.

Ok let create someone as the example, Jason (not real name). He has been straight A’s student for UPSR, PMR and SPM because he put a lot of effort and of course some luck. I can just say that his life memang meaningful. The only thing he knows is STUDY. He always wish that he can travel around the world to see the culture, people, buildings and all sort of stuff in overseas. But because of lack of money, he hardly travels around. He can’t play any musical instrument, don’t have other skills (ex: scuba diving, computer stuff etc), low self esteem, always doubt anything he does, useless and a lot stuff. Life is just so boring for him. Jason gets straight A’s in SPM but he still stupid in other stuff. He don’t know anything about computers (all the hardware thing), don’t know how to play any musical instrument (he wish he can), hardly can stick to the his decision (can be easily influenced by friends), got very very low self esteem, scared of making decision (scared will irritate other people), got really bad English. So it doesn’t mean he is smart! Even though his parents didn’t give any pressure but he himself giving all the pressure to him because he memang kiasu. (I believe most people are kiasu depend how kiasu only) Ok! Enough of this Jason fella. Oh JASON not me. Just an example. Hehehehe, so wen-liang, you are SMART!

I myself believe that all humans are smart, different people have their smartness in different aspect. No one is stupid. Cool! I am not stupid after all! Let’s see what I smart at ah? Er…… don’t know… oh I know I smart in celebrity quiz! Haha =) I only 19 this year, still young, I hope my life will be more meaningful in the future… my plan: by 30 I hope I can just don’t care everything and get my backpack and travel around the world! So CUN!

I cant wait to get my mp3 player! CACAT computer shop tipu me say got stock but go there takde.. must wait till tomorrow….. haha.. beware! I can just record anything my friend say! That digital voice recording built in the mp3 player.

Ok enough of my cheong-hei-ness

Tim Nam''

It was March 2nd 2003 when I had written something about smartness. It is really hilarious to return to my old blog and reading some posts again. I have to re post it again to remind myself what kind of guy am I 5 years ago. Did I mention 5 years ago? It doesn´t really seem that long but based on that blog entry, I am sure you agree things do change rapidly. At least I do.

Jason is me, I have to admit. But there are things similar, I still suck at IT and not inclined towards any artistic side of me. I used broken English together with Manglish. I personally think it was a piece of crap writing. At least I am having fun now at the moment to laugh at myself 5 years back. I am glad to be where and what I am now. Don´t you?

Nobel Prize

2008-04-18T23:15:00.003+02:00

Who doesn´t know about David Baltimore? I know him during my undergraduate studies. He is the one who discovered the reverse transcriptase, one of the revolutionary discovery in molecular biology field.

He was invited to Berlin last week and I was thrilled to attend his talk. It was my first encounter to a Nobel Laureate. It was full house in the lecture theater. I guess no one wanted to miss out to catch a glimpse on a Nobel Laureate.

It was an interesting talk on gene therapy and I love it.

Angel

2008-04-13T20:05:00.003+02:00

Siegessäule is the angel on this tower. It stands elegantly in Tiergarten, Berlin.

It is known as victory column that was built to commemorate wars. It has been long since I witnessed blue sky. It was a rewarding Sunday to begin my challenging week again.

Hair

2008-04-10T21:49:00.003+02:00

This is my profile picture. My hair is as long or perhaps even longer than his. I should cut my hair soon. I wonder how should I tell the hairdresser here to cut it thinner instead of shorter.

Internal

2008-04-07T22:16:00.002+02:00

It is raining again.
It is wet, damp and cold.
Things don´t seem to be very ideal.
One needs enough internal strength.
I am holding on.

Passion

2008-03-31T22:33:00.002+02:00

I seldom or even rarely to talk about science on my blog. It is not that I am not passionate about it. I just dislike talking about something too specific at times. I prefer to write something vaguely to avoid any misconception.

Anyhow, I am actually very happy about the project I am doing. I am pretty much quite thrilled as I am learning new techniques like the CHIPS-Seq. I am quite happy about it despite all those settling and adjusting new life drama thingy.

Layman term title:

'Epigenetics (Mutation without gene sequence modification) from pathogen causing gastric cancer'.

Echt

2008-03-30T21:43:00.003+02:00

I am currently into a German indie band named Echt. Even though I don't understand a single word from what they were singing, but it is a good song. The lead singer is Kim Frank, going solo after the broke up with the band. I am expanding my music culture. Haha

Footprints

2008-03-28T10:19:00.003+01:00

It snowed heavily few days back in the city itself. The snow was falling elegantly. Despite the cold, I endured it by leaving my footprints like the little boy in the picture. It felt great. Guess it was my virgin snow. That snow marked the ending of winter. Welcome to spring.

Adjustment to a new foreign place isn´t that easy after all. Obstacle after obstacle. This is the path I took, I know I have to face it. It is a learning phase. An experience phase. A self understanding phase.

Work for the best.

Beautiful

2008-03-26T19:09:00.003+01:00

As long as you wish to be beautiful, you will be beautiful

Like learning script,I'm learning beauty everyday.
Surprise at night that 3 in the morning.
I'm turning beautiful everyday.
I bet you will run to the mirror, too.
My beauty is progressing.

She is beautiful!

Happy Birthday

2008-03-26T11:50:00.002+01:00

Ti Amo. Te quiero

Happy Birthday.

Again

2008-03-23T13:40:00.003+01:00

It snows again.
Finally reaches freezing point.
White flakes are dropping elegantly.

One by one,
Hundreds by hundreds,
Thousands by thousands,
Millions by millions.

Staring outside the window, realising I will be here for millions of seconds.

我的最愛

2008-03-22T21:42:00.001+01:00

Their 3rd duet song.

Au revoir

2008-03-18T12:29:00.002+01:00

It has been a month now. Geneva is a nice place. Laidback, peaceful, serenity and beautiful. Those are the words to describe it. I love the lake, the fountain, the path back to my room at night and the people in the lab.

Au revoir

Jungfraujoch

2008-03-16T21:00:00.007+01:00

I was speechless.
I was amazed.
I was wow-ed.
I was fascinated.

By the trip to the top of Europe, Jungfrau. It took me 5 hours from Geneva to reach to the top and another 5 hours back to Geneva. The altitude about 3471m above sea level was too much for me to take. Yes, I did not have enough oxygenated haemoglobin pumped up to my brain. My head was pounding. Altitude sickness, whatever it is called is worth while to experience the trip.

Have to admit, the scenery/view is the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I highly recommend it as an ideal place for honeymoon. It is good for me to explore the area first and then I would love to bring someone to head up.

Walking on the snow,
Following footprints,
Holding each other hand,
As warm as it gets.

The photos from the camera aren't as breathtaking as real life. Perhaps THIS might help.

Bleach

2008-03-16T14:05:00.002+01:00

It gets me really excited about this manga! I am looking forward for the fight to begin! Please please, show us some new bankai. I want to see Shunsui's, SoiFon's and Ukitake's bankai.

Rain

2008-03-13T12:14:00.002+01:00

It was raining heavily yesterday.
Droplets of water falling.
A glimpse of past.
Sharing the same umbrella.
Walking side by side.
I smiled through the rain.

Fondue

2008-03-12T22:04:00.003+01:00

Cheese fondue is originated from Switzerland. My expectation to this classic dish is like everyone else, just the melted taste of cheese. Cheese fondue is a very thrifty and a 'smart' delicacy. Food like bread and cheese can't really stand for long. Both of them will eventually turn into some tough materials. Thus by adding alcohol to the cheese,it will be softened and dip the bread into it. Voila, cheese fondue.

It has strong smell of alcohol (wine probably) and it tastes cheesy. It was good initially. It was fantastic especially it was cold outside. Just sick of it consuming a whole pot of cheese.

MacBook

2008-03-10T20:39:00.001+01:00

Should I? 1000 Euro. It will be my first own portable computer.

Karma

2008-03-09T23:41:00.002+01:00

"What comes around goes around".
But being nice to people, doesn't mean expecting people to be nice back to you.
To expect someone being nice back to you, it is an ulterior motive.
What is the difference compared to a selfish person?

Cheese Fondue

2008-03-09T23:18:00.000+01:00

I want a cheese fondue. Saw it in the old city today.

Geneva

2008-03-08T20:40:00.004+01:00

Can you see the snowy hills?

Geneva is the second largest city after Zurich in Switzerland. It has wonderful scenery with mountains and lake around. It also homes the United Nations office. UN is well known for its neutral organisation to help the world.

I met an ex UN translator in a restaurant today. He is 88 years old. Caught up in some conversation and I decided to pay a visit to the Plais de Nations (Palace of Nations). It isn't a great place after all. Just the famous name.

Clover

2008-03-08T10:09:00.002+01:00

Yamada san only can love Mayama san from far. It takes plenty of courage and determination to do so. It is never easy. That's why I like Yamada san's character. I guess you can't forget those you love. You can only give them a special position in your heart.

I am agitated. Because I kept asking myself " Where should I go today? "